Current location:	Pittsburgh
Current mood:	depressed

Living in a shadow

***Originally posted Nov. 23, 2007, on Myspace.com/smartin88***

The eyes are laid upon you, seeing nothing but you,
From head to toe, everything else is only a blur.
Hoping that one day, in my arms you will stay,
But fully knowing, that the sort will never happen

Why cant i shake these, the feeling i promised to hold back,
Are they too strong, or is it punishment?
I said these words, that came from my mouth they did,
All i want to do is see you happy, so happy you shall be.

Nothing more than friends, something i didnt really want,
But what else would have happened, the way i wanted it to?
Of course not, it never works like that,
How can things ever go right, for the one who plays by the rules?

Heart and mind, in a constant struggle for power,
One wants something, but the other says its not happening.
Which to choose, mind or heart,
Out of the two, which is telling me the way i should follow?

In a broken state of mind, wanting something i cant have,
Will it ever be, me and you?
My heart says it has to happen, but my mind disagrees,
Of course with me as smart as i am, i know which one is right.

Do i always need my head to be right, but it is,
Does my heart always need to be second in the race, it will.
Why do i have to suffer to make others happy, thats the way i am,
Will i ever get what i want, most likely a no.

Why do I always have to be right in these kind of battles, ones that affect not only my life, but those around me. What i want and what is right is always two different things. I can never bring myself to hurt another to bring own personal gain, that will never happen. Maybe that is why my only destiny is to live in the shadow of pure nothing